Soon after we lost Ezekiel, I started reading the book, Trusting God by Jerry Bridges. I still haven't finished it yet because I'm reading quite a few books. It's a really good book, but I needed to read some shorter books that were geared toward my specific loss. So far, the main thing that I've learned from his book is that God does things for His glory and our good.
This morning, I sang with our worship team, "Glory to God Forever." The bridge says, "Take my life and let it be, all for you and for Your glory, take my life and let it be Yours." I couldn't help but think about Ezekiel and what I've learned about his going to Heaven. But I also couldn't help but think about how Ezekiel's life was completely for God's glory. How amazing. I have to consciously think on giving God glory for everything in my life, but my son only gets to give God glory because he has only ever known God.
After the service today, I had the privilege of visiting Ezekiel's grave. They had placed his stone this week, and I wanted to go see it. I would have been 35 weeks pregnant today. It hurts. But even though it hurts I know it was best for my son to see God in glory. God took my son home for His glory and my good. Ezekiel has won, he never has to choose between Christ or sin. He only gets to give God glory. And I hope that I can use my life for God's glory more and more each day.